It’s almost in the end of January 2019. we’re going to the second month in this year.
Well i guess, the 2018 is kind of year that packed with ups and downs, along with wrong decisions but then it led to a bigger solutions lol.
I just hope that this year, everything will fall in its place, effortlessly. everything we did back in 2018 has led us to this time, to this place, and either it is good or bad, it is a progress.
somehow, 2018 did give me another point of view on my life. that i just lost something and finally gain something better, much much better. I’ve been losing some of time of my life accompanied with (maybe) wrong people, dwelling in a wrong environment, spending my money on things i don’t need, etc. and, mid 2018 i met someone and lose someone, i gain something, i decided on things that i want, BOOM, i felt like my life just fast forwarded to the best part of it. and i don’t have much to complained, at all.
I am still living in Bali, my dream island. but, instead of living closer to the beach, i end up living up on the hill, in Ubud. no, I’m not complaining, since i get to live in a nice place that i could call it home, and it is literally a house along with my favourite person on it lol. one thing that i recognise here, Bali isn’t a place for those who think that you could build a nice relationship/jobs/friendship that long last in a easiest way. people come and go easily in here, and i do already met some of those people, either in a good terms or bad terms. and i realised that my circle is getting smaller and smaller, with me as an introvert person for starters.
I could quite sensing a person vibe that doesn’t really matched with me, i’ll quickly maneuvering out of that person’s zone. even though i think that is quite mean, but in order to protect myself from something that’s just going to ruin me, i choose to stay away at the beginning. and it has been happening twice this month. happily letting go assholes lol.
I’m going to try to embrace what i got this year, and struggling to achieve my biggest dream since i thought about it 5 years ago. finger crossed.